I love makeup. My love for makeup is what drove me to work for a beauty company, and up till today, I can never say no to a free lipstick. Makeup excites me! I find it fun, experimental and therapeutic all at the same time. Up to three years ago, I wore loads of makeup. A lot of times, my look was not very well received but I didn’t care, I was having fun with makeup and that was all that mattered to me. I didn’t wear makeup so much for boys – a lot of times, guys tell me they prefer me with less makeup. Makeup, to me, was solely for me. I loved putting on my makeup in the morning. It was incredibly therapeutic and the best start to my day – putting in my earphones, listening to upbeat music and slowly putting on the warpaint!
I had been wearing contacts my entire life, and two years ago, I developed an allergy to it. My eye doctor told me not to wear contacts for a full year, and when the year was up, I was only allowed to wear lenses for 4-6 hours. This severely impacted my makeup wearing abilities, because, believe it or not, I am so blind I cannot see my face if I don’t wear my lenses. And of course, if you’re wearing eye makeup, or you’re attempting to wear eye makeup, you’re not going to be able to do that wearing glasses.
So I stopped putting a lot of effort in my makeup. It just wasn’t fun, not being able to see what I was doing. I had glasses, I dressed sloppier and I just felt a little bit uglier in general. I still wore makeup, but usually nothing on my eyes. I relied on lipstick and blush, but I hated the contrast of my thick glasses against my painted face. It just wasn’t working for me.
A couple of months ago, I decided to get Implantable Contact Lenses. I’m going to write a separate post about this in case anyone is interested, but one thing I knew was that after doing the surgery I was not supposed to wear makeup for a month. Actually, I had gotten this wrong – I was just not supposed to wear eye makeup for a month, but for some reason I thought I wouldn’t be able to wear lipstick too. I decided I didn’t want to shock people too much because they’re used to seeing me with makeup, so the month leading up to my surgery, I stopped wearing foundation. Then I stopped with the eyebrow pencil, and for the last week, I stopped with blush and lipstick.
It’s a little bit of a long intro, but I wanted to explain why I decided not to wear makeup for a week and what drove me to that. I do feel that it doesn’t look very polished or professional if you go to work without some makeup on – just to look a little bright, and I dreaded going to work with zero makeup.
Here’s what I discovered.
I hated the first day of not wearing makeup. I felt super ugly! I felt like I looked like a very sick zombie and for some reason, even my hair started misbehaving. I also felt very embarrassed to see people. It made me realize what a huge crutch makeup is to me, and how important it is in my daily life. I don’t think so much about it when I wear it, but the absence of it is a huge impact to me.
The next few days were a little bit better, although I had a few people come up to me and offer me their lipsticks. The thing I’ve learnt most is that I managed to become more comfortable with my bare face. Towards the end of the week, I felt a lot more comfortable and confident just being in my own skin, without makeup. Of course, a few people told me I look a lot ‘healthier’ when I have makeup on but it didn’t bother me so much. And it felt good, being able to go out without any makeup whatsoever. I have never considered myself one of those naturally beautiful girls who don’t need any makeup – my face needs a lot of work to look presentable! But this one week managed to make me feel a lot stronger and better about myself.
Now that I’ve had my eye surgery, I’m back to wearing makeup. But what I like doing, is to go without makeup once a week (usually Sundays for me!) It’s just a little reminder to myself to love me for who I am, and also to give my face a little break from all the layers I put on it. It’s a strangely refreshing and liberating feeling to be able to face the world without the war paint on.
Now you try it and let me know how it goes!